Saturday, April 30, 2011

Been M.I.A

No, the kids have not had me hog tied and in the closet...I am still in charge on the home front (although some days I question this).  It's been a roller coaster of a few weeks, the moods/emotions are high and everyone is happy, but just as quickly as they rise they fall, it only takes a little thing (especially for the little two).  I have been holding onto my faith tightly, I swear that some days God saves my children and my sanity.  I need to get back into listening to my daily devotionals, they always seemed to lift my day, I have an app on my phone, however, they have messed up the devotionals, so I will have to sit and watch them on the computer.  Yes, I know I could read a daily devotionals, but I really enjoy listening to Joyce Meyers' daily podcast.  The kids have been on Spring Break for the past week and a half, so nothing has been "normal" lately...can you say chaotic and crazy around my house!  I do not believe has actually hung off the chandelier, but close enough...hide and seek inside equals one broken frame and a fat lip.  Oh well, what are you going to do, it happens.  Took the older two to see "Soul Surfer" this week during Spring Break and they loved it, of course they had to read the book before I would take them to see it.  One of the only movies that I can think of that the movie lived up to the book and was just as excellent as the book.  Took the younger two to see "Hop" this week, that was cute as well.  So glad that I ate the jelly beans, before I saw the movie and the rabbit poop them out...gross, LOL!  We have not gotten to talk to daddy much since he's been gone, he schedule is crazy and for some reason the reception sucks, and he is at Fort Dix, not even in country yet, but with the crapiness of the reception you would think he was already in country.  He is coming home for a visit the end of May beginning of June and I have very mixed feelings about this.  Of course I am super excited that we will get to spend some time with him again before he goes to the desert, however, I know that is going to leave me with the kids going through the whole daddy leaving stage again...which any military spouse knows, sucks!  Hopefully, it won't it be too bad, at least that is what I am praying for.  I am going to have to find some activities that they enjoy to do this summer...hopefully I can find something other than the pool (I do not like swimming, dislike bathing suits to the utmost).  We just successfully had butterflies from larva stage till today when we released them, we are looking to either do praying mantis or lady bugs next.  That most likely be almost done by the time summer starts, seeing as how I have to order one of them soon before they run out of supply (praying mantis) or it gets too hot to ship the larva (lady bugs).  This is a pretty boring update, not much exciting, I am just working on holding onto my sanity and continue to declutter seven years of life in the house.  Not exactly sure when it's going on the market, I know soon.  How on God's green earth I'm going to be able to keep our house at show condition with four kids, two dogs and a cat is beyond me.  Think I'm strung out and OCD now, just wait...  Well, for some reason today I cannot focus, so I think I'm going to call this a post and sign out.  Have a blessed week!

Sunday, April 10, 2011

Working on our groove...again

So, as of today it has officially been one week of this 14 month solo flight.  It started out OK, but quickly deteriorated towards the end of the week.  My little Angelica has been a handful, even getting in "trouble" at school (nothing big, she hurt someones feelings because she told them she was not going to their birthday) this week.  I am not sure what is up, but I can only contribute it to daddy being gone, nothing else has changed other than that.  By mid-week I was beat and decided that I was going to behave selfishly on Thursday, by making Angel stay all day for stay and play at school.  My plan was to get caught up on the house, but I quickly decided that that was not being selfish, LOL!  I sat and enjoyed my coffee and played on the computer for a little while, chatted on the phone with a friend, curled up in my big chair and read some of my book, took a short nap on the couch, took a nice hot bath and read some that's a "me" day.  I was not totally unproductive, I was swapping laundry in and out of the washing machine and dryer throughout the day.  It felt soo good to have the whole day to myself, the only thing missing was maybe a massage.  Yesterday was a packed day, which was nice because our weekends are the hardest when daddy is gone....however, I'm thinking it may have been a little bit too packed and by the end of the evening I was fried and the kids were soo much FUN! (that last part is of course dripping with sarcasm). Crazy  We came home from Disney on Ice (the younger three and myself) and oh my whiny!!  Got them to take a short least I think they took a short one...mine was a long one.  Did I mention I had to start my day with OUT coffee!!!  So, I was beyond frazzled. Afraid After nap time the kids had cereal and I inhaled two Klondike bars, I do crazy things when I'm over tired, stressed, frazzled, etc.  The Klondike bars are gone, so they are no longer my arch nemesis in the freezer, screaming at me every time I open the door.  What?  They really do scream my name?!?!  Then it was off to Annunciation's school performance of  "Joseph and the Amazing Technicolor Dream Coat", which of course was FABULOUS!!  Nina (my oldest) played the part of the Butler and the brother Levy, and she was excellent in her roles ...and NO I'm not at all biased!  Any who...we returned home about 9:30pm from this and boy was I in for some roller coaster emotions from the little two.  I had to have some wine...I said WINE, not WHINE... but they so graciously blessed me with five letter version while I poured myself a glass for the four letter version.  Bedtime brought melt down after melt down after.....can you guess?  Yep, MELTDOWN!!  I honestly was on the verge of my very own meltdown and when mommy melts down its UUUUGGLY!! Dr. Jekyll Mr. Hyde You know that saying when mamma ain't happy, ain't nobody happy...aaahh there is so much truth to that statement.  So today, I cleared the calendar and I hope God can forgive me, that meant no church either (the last one to did not wake up  until almost 10:30) and here I sit in Panera, by myself taking a mental break so I do not harm anyone, LOLOLOL! Meditate

Tomorrow is a new day, and the start of new routines and organization in our lives.  Time to get back on the exercise and weight loss wagon, you know that one I mentioned, oh I don't know, a few months ago.  I've vowed not to get involved with the pointless adult drama that affected me while hubby was gone in Iraq, now I just have to pray the drama and mood swings of the children doesn't take it's toll on me.  I started to listen to my devotionals again on Thursday, that makes a total difference in how my day goes.  I missed the Parish Outreach Committee meeting this past week, I was just so drained, I did not feel like going out.  I am looking forward to getting involved in that, the next meeting is next month, so I have it on my calendar already.  Had our M.O.M.S Celebration Luncheon last weekend, it was so nice to get together with  everyone again, and I cannot wait till the next social we have...although we did talk about meeting at St. Panera's sometime soon.  Well, I've babbled here long enough I have to go get milk and a few other grocery items then go get the kidlets.  Besides, I've lost my concentration here, there is a teenage girl sitting at the table next to me being a total brat to her mom and I'm ready to yank her by her hair and tell her to stop being disrespectful.  GGRR, but this is a rant for another day, LOL!!  Hope you have an amazingly blessed week!  I'll try to add this to my more consistent routine.  MWAH!!

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